With another year coming to an end I find myself looking back at the long tiresome days,weeks and months that it held.I also find myself looking forward not just at the next year but years ahead.
Its sometimes amazes me that I have 3 children,a house in a awesome community and a husband of almost 10 years.The places and people I have seen and met along the way sometimes seem like a dream and a really fast time warp.This year was my 10 year High school reunion and there are days I feel like I could be back in high school, riding in my now husbands, old Black Honda civic on a Friday night to a football game in my cheer uniform.In those days you thought you had life rough when your parents were mad at you for not cleaning your room or doing your chores.Now I AM that parent.No my kids arn't that big yet but I know sooner then later they will be.
As a parent and adult in general you realize what rough is sometimes.For me its staying up all night with my sick babies knowing I cant help them in anyway but hold them and sing to them. Driving hours on end, week after week, to make sure my special needs child has the best care he can have.Spending hours out of my life at therapy with him just to make sure he can develop on time.Working on school projects and spending that extra time with them on their homework just to make sure they understand it. Volunteering at their school and being on the PTO to make all the difference I can in their education.Or simply all the time I spend driving them from one activity to the next with a screaming baby, that as hard as you try to ignore still gets the best of you some days.
If I could explain this last year in one word it would be Exhausting! As a Mom this is what I choose to do.I would never in a million years change my life but find it healthy to acknowledge it can be rough some days,weeks or years out of your life.
I find sanity in realizing I don't really have that much time with my kids. Understanding how short 10 years can be makes me want nothing more then to spend as much time with my kids as I can. In the next year as everyone is making their New Years resolution I urge you to consider making one for your kids..I want to not be so quick to be angry with them. Appreciate that they will make mistakes and help them learn through those mistakes instead of get mad at them.I pray for more patience with them and my husband and I want to slow life down a little bit.A family motto we have is "No success in the world makes up for failure in the home" I want to try and live by that a little more this year.
I wish all my friends and family a happy and healthy Year to come.As always remember to Be Kind, Smile and Give love!!